Today I am not striving for happy, sad, smiles, yells… Just staying alive. I know in this life happy is so important… But today and maybe tomorrow I am just staying alive. I think I am allowed that… Allowed to just get by. I am too confused, sad, hurt, heavy and hectic to feel the need for ‘happy’ today… I would fail miserably. So today (and maybe tomorrow) I am just alive.