The days go slow but the years go fast…

I remember clearly many times that older people made comments about back when their kids were young. I remember standing in lines at Target, going for walks through the neighborhood and hearing my aunts and uncles talk- all said enjoy this time, it will go fast. I didn’t necessarily believe them, I thought that maybe God made them forget how hard it all was. I was in the middle of the first chunk of rough- the sleepless crazy time. I remember days that I didn’t shower, and yet I miss it. The girls grew and still I would hear- enjoy this time, it will go fast. I was super busy chasing and modeling kind behavior. I was handling meltdowns and chaos. I could not believe that I would ever miss that time, it was so hard. Once the girls entered Preschool, I would pick them up and ask them about their day and hear “We had goldfish for snack.” Way back in the time of high Goldfish consumption, I would hear others as the girls and shopped- enjoy this time, it will go fast. I envisioned how great it would be when I could shop and not maintain a Musto Train of girls with hands on cart. I imagined no one could miss that…

Then came Kindergarten, and I missed the girls from lunch on. I hated 6 hours away… but I trusted their teacher. I trusted that they were enjoying their time, I reminded them it goes so fast. There were days they missed me, especially Madeline, and I assured her that I loved her so much, and to enjoy her time, it would go by fast. I guess I knew it and always talked myself out of it…

So… as the saying goes the days go slow but the years go fast… it is true. It seems like only moments ago I sent Amelia on the bus to Kindergarten, yet I saw pictures the other day and it has been so many moments since she began her journey through the grades. I enjoyed many moments, I cried some, I laughed a lot, I yelled a bit, I dreamt of a time when I could sleep though the night, I hoped for the day they could ride bikes and I could read and not really watch… welcome to that time. Time went fast…

I never look back and regret, I never look back and think ‘I should have done it different’… it just really does go by fast. Those folks were right, they didn’t forget the tired, they didn’t wish away the tantrums, they didn’t forget the shopping trips and stress… they can look back in miss that hard right alongside of the great. I get it now…

Today my Amelia graduated from Elementary School, she walked out of that colorful and short school never to return again as a student there. She is now an official middle schooler. Amelia is a product of those slow-moving days and fast moving years… in only moments she went from big cheeks with dimples and devilish eyes, to a lovely set of dimples and eyes that laugh.

I mostly kept my eyes dry, there were no sunglasses to hide the little drops that always pop out. I had those thoughts about Madeline and how proud she must be of Amelia right next to the feelings of missing her like crazy. That is part of our forever life here at the Musto Estate, missing and loving, pain and joy.

I helped Amelia get ready, I crimped her hair and watched her put on a tiny bit of mascara. She got her dress on and finally pronounced the crimped hair was just right. I got her gift ready to put on, I bought it with Madeline in mind. I found pearl earrings and necklace on Amazon and she wore her Maddie bracelet. I told her, as I put in her earrings, how badly Madeline wanted pearl earrings when she entered kindergarten. I was so excited when I found a set from Avon and ordered with my cousin Su-z. Those earrings were her pride and joy. I remember Madeline opening the red gift box and being so excited. I think it may have been the best $5 spent ever. Amelia’s were a little different and lacked the red box, but she was excited to wear those pearls. When Amelia was ready and it was time to go, I had her go over in front of our big tree. We take most pictures there. I looked at her with her big smile, her pearls and her floral dress, along with her lipstick and personality, and reflected on how we, Musto Chicks, might grow and change but we will always be lovely, flower laden girls with pearls and smiles… under our tree. It is in us…

So as time keeps moving and days are so slow… and years are so fast- we keep growing together, we keep building together. Madeline isn’t here to rock her pearls and dimple, but we carry her with us. Amelia moved up, graduated from Elementary in her big flowers and little pearls. Lucy is excited for her adventures in 4th grade. Time keeps moving… and boy do I miss those times way back when. What I wouldn’t give for my girls hands on the cart in the grocery store, or the work to go into public restrooms…

 

 

PS Meme we are so freaking proud of you. I have watched you grow and prepare to soar, and I believe God has a plan for you to soar. Be gritty, be strong and be kind lovely…

 

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