The day is gray, chilly and grey. There is no ‘Sonshine’ today… just grey. I imagine, though, that the night got a bit brighter. Yesterday was Benson’s day with a broken heart, a mended broken heart. He peacefully left this place to go on to the next, I know he was greeted by the most welcoming light. I imagine Benson is loving the lack of tubes and people telling him which way to lay… I am sure he missed the constant touch and love from his parents and care from his hospital family- but in a blink they will join him.
I was told once by a medium that Madeline’s job in heaven is welcoming the littles, being there right then. The perfect job for her. I have felt comfort and grace knowing that every little soul I have said goodbye to she has welcomed. Yesterday was no different, she is no longer in heaven watching down on her cousins growing- she is doing what she loved best and playing with her cousin. So while we are stuck here missing them, they are playing and staying young… no worrying about safety or predators or evil- no more worry. They will giggle and chat, or maybe just sign… who knows.
I have struggled with the why. I have struggled with the lack of fairness. I have hated the heavy burdens placed on my family and myself. I have begged for easy… but reminded constantly that in the messy and terrible and awful there has always been an abundance of love. Love comes from suffering.
Watching Benson and his parents, seeing the enormous love they have for him, the hope they had. I have no doubt Cortney and Damon were chosen to be Benson’s parents… to provide him all of the love he needed and more. I want to share this story, the story of love and suffering… and a child who chose it. I believe that Madeline got in line for the life she had, a short life and she knew it. I believe Benson’s journey is similar and the love his life brought is abundant. I know I will carry it forever…
“The Brave Little Soul”
by John Alessi
Not too long ago in Heaven there was a little soul who took wonder in observing the world. He especially enjoyed the love he saw there and often expressed this joy with God. One day however, the little soul was sad, for on this day he saw suffering in the world. He approached God and sadly asked, “Why do bad things happen, why is there suffering in the world?”
God paused for a moment and replied, “Little soul, do not be sad, for the suffering you see, unlocks the love in people’s hearts”. The little soul was confused. “What do you mean?”, he asked. God replied, “Have you not noticed the goodness and love that is the offspring of that suffering? Look at how people come together, drop their differences, and show their love and compassion for those who suffer. All their other motivations disappear, and they become motivated by love alone.
The little soul began to understand and listened attentively as God continued “The suffering soul unlocks the love in people’s hearts- much like the sun and rain unlock the flower within the seed. I created everyone with endless love in their heart, but unfortunately most people keep it locked up and hardly share it with anyone. They are afraid to let their love shine freely, because they are afraid of being hurt- but a suffering soul unlocks that love. I tell you this- it is the greatest miracle of all. Many souls have bravely chosen to go into the world and suffer, to unlock this love and to create this miracle-for the good of all humanity.
Just then the little soul got a wonderful idea and could hardly contain himself. His wings were fluttering, bouncing up and down- the little soul excitedly replied, “I am brave; let me go! I would like to go into this world and suffer so that I can unlock the goodness and love in people’s hearts! I want to create that miracle!”
God smiled and said, “You are a brave soul I know, and thus I will grant your request. But even though you are very brave you will not be able to do this alone. I have known since the beginning of time that you would ask for this and so I have carefully selected many souls to care for you on your journey. Those souls will help you create your miracle; however, they will also share in your suffering. Two of these souls are most special and will care for you, help you and suffer along with you, far beyond the others. They have already chosen a name for you.”
God and the brave little soul shared a smile, and then embraced. In parting, God said, “Do not forget little soul that I will be with you always. Although you have agreed to bear the pain, you will do so through my strength. If the time should come when you feel that you have suffered enough, just say the word, think the thought, and you will be healed.
At that moment the brave little soul was born into the world, and through his suffering and God’s strength he unlocked the goodness and love in people’s hearts. Many people dropped their differences and came together to show their love. Priorities became properly aligned. People gave from their hearts. Those that were always too busy found time. Many began new spiritual journeys-some regained lost faith-many came back to God. Parents hugged their children tighter. Friends and family grew closer. Old friends got together and new friendships were made. Distant family reunited, and every family spent more time together. Everyone prayed. Peace and love reigned. Lives were changed forever. It was good. The world was a better place. The miracle had happened. God was pleased.”
Benson’s spirit and strength far exceed that of most adults I have met. He trudged through so much and created love in the darkest spots. He leaves a wound, a deep wound in some very broken hearts- it will heal from the outside in. Carry him with you…
His short life and his parents constant care and love are testaments to the power of that love. If you have been changed and reflect on life differently, if you have built your faith stronger, if you have reconnected to your family, if you have let go on bullcrap, if you have forgiven those that hurt you- keep it up. In 2022 and 2028 and 2045 and beyond- carry that love forward to bring the ‘Sonshine’ along in your light days and the starlight he brings into your dark nights…